Sorta bored/irritated/emo this morning, so Imma update a bit. Yaaay.

Good stuff first so you can skip the bad if you want. TRANSFORMERS IS FREAKING AWESOME OMG GO SEE IT ITS FULL OF WIN. Seriously. Loved the movie. LOVED the movie. So much fun. <3

I gots nice prismacolor pencils. They make me want to draw. Good, yes? Too lazy to use my scanner though. Not to mention the scanner is gonna make the colors look horrid. :< I may post sonmet6hing eventually though. This account dead.

AUGUST 31ST is going to make me happy. Life is getting bad again, but if anything can cure it its Kingdom Hearts. With my PS2 dead there's no way I can play the others. 358/2 days sounds promising though.

Writing writing but never posting. I should probably stop that and post at least one of my stories. Might feel better if I do. problem is, writers block comes more common than art block. I have a tendency to hate all my ideas cause they're so CLICHE. But Imma get over it and write more anyways.

Yesterday sucked. Stuff happened, all right before work. I ended up going into Taco Bell crying. I have had a really hard time not crying lately. That's funny cause I used to be really good at it on bad days. Tear stains do wonders though. Customer are soooo nice when they know you had a bad time. But that probably sounds selfish. Still. Helped me cheer up a bit. (Course the 2 Monsters and coffee after work definitely made everything seem better. I really to stop that though)

I'm probably gonna switch to full time. between everything that's happened, I know I will not have any money if I keep with the schedule I have now. It's gonna kill me when college starts, but money problems are worse then stress. I need a lot of things for college, and then we have no food around here so when mom runs out of money I need to get food for her and 4 kids. Fuck her. Seriously. Not my fault she has to spend all her fucking money right after she gets it. She's the reason I keep running out.

Anyways, The next week or so is gonna suck. It's gone to the point where I am wishing that 2012 is true and the world will end and thus no more money problems or me fucking up! Too bad I don't believe anything will actually happen in 2012.

But you know, I still have this hope that things are gonna get better before the summer ends. Like that no matter how bad things get, something will come up in the last minute that makes everything better. It always happens, so i wouldn't be surprised. maybe that's the coffee talking, or the msuic playing. I have a tendency to feel better about stuff when listening to music or drinking coffee til my kidneys bleed. But thats a good thing in my book.